A lot to think about : Wandering through a Care Home

I imagine that when I came home I would be going back into my life the same as it was before I went into hospital I've gradually realised that you can't step into the same river twice by which I mean this place had changed while I was away. people had died or moved and the hoe was a different person as well no longer able to walk independently without supports and distress at the conditions of my house but I also felt very happy to be able to look at my beautiful pictures and open my own front door to greet people. it was like coming out of prison but it's not easy when you have been institutionalised My confidence had gone down even though I had done so much to free myself from the nursing home

I thought when I came home two years ago from that nursing home that I would simply slot back into my life the way it had been before I had the fall but as the then saying goes you can't step into the same river twice neighbours and friends had died or moved new people have come. I was ok walking inside but walking outside is more difficult although at the beginning it wasn't too bad after I broke my wrist it was more difficult. but although I've had sepsis I have not Honda severe chest infections that nearly killed me there I have suffered a lot of emotional pain more of which was caused me by the woman totp whom I paid a lot of money to get the house ready for me but when I think of the faces of some of the people in the nursing home who looked as if they had died before they were dead then I know that I did the then I know that I did the right thing