A lot to think about : Wandering through a Care Home

I lear ned from my experiences in the nursing home especially those I had with two very old ladies with dementia but also with a lot of personality as well. one of them said to me if only I could have visitors who didn't keep talking I would just like to have someone there like my son in the room but not constantly talking. I was glad that I was able to be with her for an hour and a half on her last day of life. she was conscious but in severe pain and I sat by her until the nurse asked me to to leave because they had to wash her when I got to the door she said say goodnight everyone it was only 3:30 in the afternoon but I did what she wanted as I said on her behalf goodnight everyone good night it was a great privilege to know this Welsh school teacher who was a mother of three children the other woman was more about their affected by dementia I learnt from observation and experience that I could communicate with a much better if I was present snd fully aware of my own body. you c...

For 4 months now I have been ill with severe UTIs. I’ve had a scan and I’ve got a lot of kidney stones which may or may not be the cause. Probably I have spent 10 weeks in bed and I was talking to a doctor this morning who was very kind but then said to me,do you think you are feeling a bit low at the moment? Wellvwould it not be abnormal if I were over the moon with joy!? He wonders if counselling could help me while I am waiting to see the consultant who might be able to solve the mystery of my illnesses. Given that most people don’t want to talk about illness which goes on for more than a few days or for the depression associated with some illnesses etc then perhaps counselling can help but what would help me more is a cure for this long illness . Or possibly if someone fell madly in love with me. But it would have to be someone who lived near me Maybe that would be a distraction from the illnesses and chronic pain I suffer from. On the other hand perhaps it would have no eff...

I think if it was possible that's quite a few older people in care homes or nursing homes would like to die as soon as they could. when did btell me I was a coward because I wouldn't k8ll her some of the people look as if they've died already while they're still alive it's a horrible thing to see someone like that with terribly sad eyes. but the windows don't open very far and there's very few ways in which anyone could themselves I did read about amount in Italy dying while trying to climb out of a nursing home window and lord himself to the ground with some sheets it's like being i another world where you have no autonomy really and if youask for more attention,were told that you're not the only person that they're loiking after it's very sad really the whole thing is very very sad. because what they really want they want somebody to talk to to have a conversation with they want something to happen under there she was very long for them ...

Now more than 2 years have passed by since I left the nursing home and return to my own house. and I know realise it's like when you break your leg it may heal quite well that will always be accepting in thwill never be the same as it was before. that is very hard for me to accept I thought it will be like a seamless garment in reality this is my torrent garment that seems like a torn garment history sewed together. and neighbours friends and neighbours have died and people have arrived and I am so different that even the ones who were friendly with me before seem to be suspicious now the worst part is that I feel I was treated by the woman who prepared to house for me. there's been a lot of pain of all kinds since I have broken my wrist and have had sepsis twice but despite that when I sit here in the evening with the lamps that and I look at the pictures on the wall I feel very happy moreover despite my health problems they're not as bad as if I wouldn't have remain...