A lot to think about : Wandering through a Care Home

The face that was familiar is erased And now I feel the emptiness within A lonely heart,a mind that seems half crazed By losing him,how greatly have I sinned? The face so dear, seemed etched upon my heart I did not see the writing on the wall Now my heart is blank, how shall I start? Never love another in this life? Measure Mathematics on a chart? Learn the poet’s worth yet feel the knife? The dagger in the heart, the loss of blood Anaemic, faint and weak, where shall we go? Like the chained up slaves felt, where is good? The Arctic wastes of life, the frost the snow. I smile and look contented , understood My patient hands alone now sweat with blood

i f you find yourself wandering around the corridors can you talk to yourself and ask yourself is there anything else that you could do instead of wandering. you may not realise how much you wonder if you have a poor memorz. is other people are irritated with you remember it might be something that you're doing such as going into their room too much. here are some things that you could do instead if you've got a smartphone you can look at your first of us slowly and with interest. you can put your radio on or use your iPad to listen to music. if your brain is still working listen to discussions on the radio what is it tonight. can you get a copy of the radio tiles or look it on your phone or your iPad find out what is on the more control you can exert the better. lesshe more anxiety and or depression

Peoplr who are not children are expected to be and expect themselves to be the agent of their own life. They decide what they do as far as they can given them out of money especially they have and given the people they are involved with. until recently in England a woman who got married was expected to do whatever husband wanted to dlo. if you are in in Nursing home can you be the agent of your own life? if you have sold your moved into the Nottingham family you've already made a very big decision. but you should make more like what are you going to do every day question mark Do you have interest in hobbies. are you going to pursue them are you waiting passively for the staff to tell you what to do or you're waiting for the staff to become your friends and then complain if they dont sut with your old hair long nursing homes are businesses. they don't employ a lot of staff and the staff are there mainly to the gifted the physical health conversations and to keep them clean

maybe if you were living in a place like this then like me you would notice the bad things a strange things the things that could be better and that no one wants to listen to you when you tell them. the carers have many failings but some of them are very very good people who open their hearts to care for us and make us comfortable. i I wear being paid the minimum wage I'm doing 3or 4 12 hour shifts a week, I don't know if I could be so kind. the humble all light the worms in the soil that we despise them sometimes and think I foolish even stupid there are but I have come to value people lu are not academic full of bootlearning and big words. I have to praise the people whose pulse beats with the pulse of the world. Why is I Q valued so highly? it's possible that Hitler would have done well on an IQ test and that is truly frightening.

There is a lady of 100 here. she has got immensely and she shouts and screams for most of the day although if someone is talking to her she stops screaming. it's upsets the carers as well so one of them just told me but the thing is they go home in the evening and we don't go home in the evening and sometimes all night as well and then luckily that's worn us and sleep for a long time but in the meantime because I'm not feeling very good myself to day I'm feeling very sad. I hear her screaming even when my door is closed. She can talk rationally but she wants things that she can't get like she wants to go outside in the garden but she can't walk so she has to go in a wheelchair which needs two people to manage and since it's often only two carers on duty it is very rare that she can go outside unless summer I don't think I went outside more than once partly because it was too hot but when it wasn't too I would have liked her outside but I would ha