A lot to think about : Wandering through a Care Home

The face that was familiar is erased And now I feel the emptiness within A lonely heart,a mind that seems half crazed By losing him,how greatly have I sinned? The face so dear, seemed etched upon my heart I did not see the writing on the wall Now my heart is blank, how shall I start? Never love another in this life? Measure Mathematics on a chart? Learn the poet’s worth yet feel the knife? The dagger in the heart, the loss of blood Anaemic, faint and weak, where shall we go? Like the chained up slaves felt, where is good? The Arctic wastes of life, the frost the snow. I smile and look contented , understood My patient hands alone now sweat with blood

I always thought my daughter was stupid but she's sutpassef herself this week She was born when I was 25 and now she is in the secondary school because she turned 12. Well she was off school one day last week but I didn't know that she was playing hooky. The next day she told the teacher that she had this home with me because I was suffering from dementia so I had to lie down with a cold compress on my head. well there is early onset dementia but I am only 37 and I've not even reached the menopause yet. But the teacher believed her on the headmistress is going to someone see me tomorrow and find out whether I'm having any treatment. I'll give her some treatment if she comes here as she will not come back again

maybe if you were living in a place like this then like me you would notice the bad things a strange things the things that could be better and that no one wants to listen to you when you tell them. the carers have many failings but some of them are very very good people who open their hearts to care for us and make us comfortable. i I wear being paid the minimum wage I'm doing 3or 4 12 hour shifts a week, I don't know if I could be so kind. the humble all light the worms in the soil that we despise them sometimes and think I foolish even stupid there are but I have come to value people lu are not academic full of bootlearning and big words. I have to praise the people whose pulse beats with the pulse of the world. Why is I Q valued so highly? it's possible that Hitler would have done well on an IQ test and that is truly frightening.

Even if you say that you will comb your own hair the nurse will still be say,dont forgwt. I think being put in that helps us position every day is a cause of depression. see Martin Seligman's book,Learned helplessness. depression is very dangerous as it will reduce your interest in things and your energy levels and so on but as long as you are clean and your room is tidy as nd ckean that is it as far as the staff are concerned

No I had never seen anyone anyone with dementia until I came here and I thought they wouldn't be able to communicate but there's a lovely lady next to me. I didn't know that she's got dementia and it took me awhile to realise that not everything she said was true. What night about 10 she started screaming and and the screaming all demented person is hard to ignore The nurse was unable to help her and after an hour I couldn't stand it anymore so I went in and asked what was wrong and she said I want to go go home, so I said where is your home? She then said the name of this place sit will you are there you are at home already this is your room and you fully recognise my voice because I have an extra room to you and immediately she quieten down and was quite calm she been having a nightmare about travelling in a car which two strangers and she became frightened. But my voice then with him enough to calm her. Octoberi she died so maybe the dream was about that Since